The Way

Does anybody know exactly where they want to end up in life?

I used to know what i wanted and needed from life. When i had just started college when i was 16 i was so sure i knew where i was heading. Now i'm not so sure things just seem to have changed somehow, i don't know if its me or if its circumstances that have changed me. The key word in all of this is "change". All of me is different from when i was younger, i never wanted to be different from what i was, i liked me then, i'm not sure about now. I think i'm a good person, but it irratates the hell out of me when people say stuff like "Darren, you're a nice lad" or "Darren, you're a well-rounded person". I have flaws like everybody else. It's not that i don't want to believe the same thing but people don't know me like i know myself.

I'm not sure what's wrong me, people i know would kill to have that sort of compliments thrown at them, but...not me.

All i want is a boyfriend, who is on the same page as me but until i get off this page i don't think that's going to happen. Nobody wants a screw up, i suppose i'm not a complete trainwreck, there are worse people than me, much worse people.

Bottom line. I suppose i'm not going to get anywhere until i make a decision about what i want out of life and my future.